It feels too immoral of me to have any contact with them without they know that I'm gay. I'm not afraid of how they will react to me or how they will treat me, but it's very hard to say (I simply hate using any word related to 'gay'), plus, I've shown my interests, opinions and beliefs earlier. I'm afraid they will hate everything I like, mean or think. Science is so important for us and I don't want anyone to think it's "gay" or something like that...
Also, if I talk with them etc., they would perhaps also hate gays even more afterwards. I want to be 100% certain that I don't do anything that could cause more hate to gays. I wish the best for everyone, and I want to be a good person who will cause other people to think better about us.
Well, it's a good pourpose, but you are you, and nobody can change it, neither yourself. What's wrong is not our behaviour, but how they react to us.
They have to change, not us. Unless we doesn't hurt anyone, we are free to do whatever we want.
Loving someone of the same sex doesn't hurt anyone.
If you love someone or something why you cannot do it the way you like most?? Just because someone doesn't like it? That's not a sufficient reason.
A good parallel I usually do is racism:
You don't have to paint your skin white, or leave your seat in a bus to a white person to be liked by everybody or to make blacks more loved..
but it's very hard to say
I know it
, but for other reasons, 'cos...
(I simply hate using any word related to 'gay')
Trust me, don't. It is just like hating yourself...